For the first time in a long time, I have been learning to make decisions and do what’s best for me. For years, I have struggled with saying, “no” and setting boundaries. I never wanted to let anyone down, but it got so bad, I got hurt and put myself on the back burner. I stopped caring about myself and I allowed the hurtful words that were said to me become my new perspective.
I had enough. I decided to drop everything. I gave my notice at both my jobs (which I absolutely love), I said no to certain invitations, and I put my foot down on being treated poorly, even if it meant distancing myself from the people I love and care about the most. I didn’t renew my lease and instead, decided to go back to the place where I last felt happiness.
I’ve gotten some pretty bad backlash… but I need to think of my health and where I am at. The thing is, I will not allow negativity and hurtful people in my life anymore. I have a choice; and I can choose to stay and be miserable, or I can step out of my comfort zone and follow the call God has put on my heart.
My recovery is extremely important to me; even when I feel like giving up and I cry for days on end, I need to keep going. I am worthy of freedom, I am worthy of love, and I am worthy of happiness. I know can do this.
T- 14 days until I move back to Vancouver, WA and I couldn’t be more happier about my decision.